Seeps

Some have been struck by lightning
Some been hit by a 20 tonne brick
Some fall, like into a hole in the floor
But I didn't go through any of it

Some claim it's cause of who he is
Some say it's the way he behaves
Some gush at his looks and charm
But I find no weight in those claims

If love can break your heart so bad
Then who would want to give in?
Love just seeps into you
Before you know it you're in love with him

He's Not That Into You

Hints surrounded her like a fog
She analyzed them as she wrote her blog
Was he such a strategist, this croakin frog?
Or were her friends just fillin her head with smog?

Sure it made a great story, just link the dots
She'd give anything to find out his innermost thoughts
But though she wished it, a mind reader she was not
And all those fairy tales in reality boiled down to naught

They told her stuff she smiled at it she really didn't care
She wished he didn't feel that way cause she knew she'd never do the same
She forgot it then and there it had been his chance he'd blown
She knew now he was not a guy to fight for her
And if there was anything she wanted most in her dude
It was that he hold on to her anyway he could

So sorry but she'd learnt her lesson
And never would she repeat her mistake
So she hoped the hints were shallow if just for his sake

Music

Rhythm flew through his veins
Forceful yet gentle magic
Electricity turning the keys
So basic so ethereal
Calling out the unthought emotions
What is this connection?
What is this language?
Whispering endearments
And I reach automatically
Who is this?
Who knows my void?
Though he doesn't know me
Who has laid claim to my deepest thoughts?
And I know its not just me
Oh! To have such power
Such...
There are no words for once
I shudder
And press replay...

Can You Love Yourself Now

My world is giddy
I'm spinning around in it
Sinning around in it
Jesus forgive me
Just stop my world being giddy
It's spinning around me
I'm high yet I'm low
Knowing I'm yet on the roller-coaster
My body shaking
My faculties wasting
Yet my mind awake
Because that's the way I roll
He said my hands were hot
Like they were frying pans
He felt my neck, my shoulders, my knee
He massaged my head to take away the panic
The tension of the day
'Just relax, don't think' He said
While I was busy counting on my mind
To save me
Save me from what?
A deeper connection?
Elemental sensation?
Drunk poetry doesn't rhyme as much
Luckily, I'm too much of a lit geek
To suffer typos
My head is spinning
I rest it on a chair
I don't want to puke
Don't want to make my mom aware
That that which I drank was vodka
Not Sprite
I wanna close my eyes
Sleep peacefully tonight
Will I be able to?
Can I burp all of it out?
And hope my boss shall e-mail me
When I'm in a stable state of mind
And she finds it easy to empathize with mine
I feel my head spinning
What will help me?
I feel my head spinning
What will help me?
Will it be the thought that I'm soon to sleep
Or will it be the thought that I was holding hands
With you who will never love me
And I don't want you to
Because I don't want to take things too far
I just want to enjoy this moment
You and I
As I burp my way to sobriety

Merry Go Round

Grey smoke parts in curtains of dew
Across the grainy sand touched by the blue emeralds of drops
Tiny sinking in deep vanishing in a moment
Oh beautiful sky you fill me up with joy
I empty the cup of my sorrow into you upwards
Merry me, round and round, in the dust kicked up by my heels
Freedom freed in this heart of mine beating a tattoo faster than the raining spell Pitter patter of little feet of little drops calling to me
Dripping down the smooth cool surface of angry horses with flashing eyes flashing gold into the night like the beacons of something evil

A storm rents the sky
Thunder echoes softly, deadly
Promising death to who stands in its path
I search for cover, looking here there for some dry sanctuary
I find none except the wild horses rocking away in demented melody
Rushing, risking life I run to one who looks at me
Daring me to climb it as the ferris spirals out of control
Up, up I look amazed as it turns up out of the ground
I feel dazed I know not anymore for all is blackness to me

I open these eyes so tightly shut and breathe
One piece, all there and music comes to my ears
A painful melody of teary violins in the wind
The notes almost tangible to he who can perceive
Overcome with the emotions inspired within this capricious heart I look to the only light in the place
An oil lamp blushes with light on to the face of intensity
Angular features on an angular face lips pursed in concentration
Painting with a frenzy I understand
He looks up but doesn't see me
Too lost in what surrounds him to know anything except the blood of his heart bleeding on to his canvas out of the pores of his brush
I understand

Writer's Ecstasy

The words unravel from my pen
Shadows dancing along the walls of this church
Candles flickering
Arranged in a pattern
That doesn't quite make sense
I'm awake yet not
Sleeping, almost dead to the world
Just awake to the music that plays
Curious symphony of ghostly hands
So ancient, so wise, yet ever changing
Strong hands
Beautiful to look at

The church is domed
It has ladies posing within gilt frames
They extend their hands to the viewer
Daring him to visit their space
Sly, cunning smiles
Glorious youth
Beguiling splendor
They look at me and I know them
They beckon to my soul
My reflection dances within their eyes

The smoke of the ghost rises
It evanesces across the room
Spreading, kissing each portrait in turn
It reminds me of a guy I used to know
Briefly one then another
All turning, merging, melding
It forms the nature of a Prince
Surrounds me, twirling around me
Through him, with him, in him
Spirit makes reality shine
No longer material, no longer substance
I leave my earthly bonds as I merge with the divine

Scarred

At times like these
My heart bleeds
An open wound
A scar slashing across my face

In times like these
Sorrow overflows
From dry eyes
A desert too parched to cry anymore

We'll live in parallel
We won't intersect
You will never see
As I long alone and lonely, silently

Station Square Part III

He had changed, she wondered
As he spoke of conditions and terms
How had he got so far from the misery?
How had he picked himself up?
How had he learned?

He cleared his throat in annoyance
Asking her to concentrate
At last when the meeting ended
He commented on her state

She really couldn't stand it then
Annoyed, upset she teased
'Have you forgotten the station square?
Can't you recall the friends that used to be?'

'They suffered rudenesses together
Calling them names, people turned
How they held on to each other then
As in the sweltering sun they burned.'

As she continued, he held up a hand
'As if they hadn't died in your eyes,
Fame went to your head my dear,
Now, I've let it go to mine.'

Voicing a protest she began
But he simply picked up his phone
'I've got another meeting in five,
You could do as you did and leave me alone.'

Beyond any control, the storm in her mind
She took the phone and slammed it down
'I made the mistake years ago Karan,
Do not let's make this mistake right now.'

She held on to his hand and made him look
She touched his cheek and he silently shook
Putting his hands in her hair he whispered
'I can't forget and I can't forgive you.'

'You shattered me, when you left...'
Tears pricked her eyes at the sight of his pain
'I'm so sorry' she began
He shook his head and cursed
'Damn it, you still don't understand
I loved you.'

Cradling him within her arms
She rested his head upon her chest
'I don't care what you do,
I'm not leaving you again.'

There they stood till there was no need for words
As the reunited two relearned
It doesn't matter how much time has passed
Once you've loved, you'll always love