Loneliness

You are too precious not too share
You are too giving not to care
Never lock yourself in loneliness
Or I’ll come unlock you from there

A Fairy Fell

Was a fairy to fall on my pillow?
And graciously take me away
Into a land of star shine
I’d miss you all the way

At the ball, when they took my hand
And led me to the floor
The beat would infect
And remind me of you all the more

As the net caught me
Mistaking me for a butterfly
I’d wish the hand was yours
As I walked upon it

But as I heard your voice
I’d come where you lay
All my magic, the fairy dust
I’d give it all away
If I could ensure
That you would be okay

TLC don’t mean taming

Break it just to see
How much it can crack
Without falling apart
I see the tears
I know the fears
Of that needy heart
Clinging yet arrogant
Age doesn’t mean you are smart
TLC don’t mean taming
To be exactly as you are

Why

Let it break your heart till it shrivels up inside
Till you know what you lost that night that you lied
Till you reach out to me but there’s no one at your side
Lord I hope you miss me till the day you die you die you die you die

So go ahead and cry
Let your heart just wonder why
Suffer within, suffer without
You toss and you turn and you try not to shout
Out why? Why? Why? Why…

You bleed it dry and you burn it out
You stumble and fall try not to break out
But all the light in the world can’t help you out
Cause it was your choice baby

It was the ditch that you dug that you fell into
And now you know that I know I’m not missing you
And that I’m finally out of love with you
Lord I know you’ll miss me till the day you die, you die, you die, you die

To Begin With

I thank you for helping me to be
Away from you
I thank you for helping me break free
To get over you
This was the only way I could have seen
This was the only way it could have been
My only mistake was that I trusted you
I thank you for helping me to be
Away from you
I thank you helping me break free
To get over you
I thought you were my friend
Somethings they never end
Cause they weren’t there to begin with

Love (When I was 11!)

Love is not what makes the world go round
But what makes the ride worthwhile
Love isn’t just a heavenly gift sent to bring you a smile
But love is something you cannot explain
Cause it brings you joy and in the process pain
If you have no love, it is not worth to live
Even if you are poor, you have love to give
Love can break your heart in two
Love can lift you into the air
Love has to be a part of you
Because for everybody’s heart a little bit of love is always there
Love is really the most precious thing one can ever own
Yet if you only care and share and love everyone too
You will always have love and everyone will love you

Secret Longing

Oh you who dwell in the depths
Of the labyrinths of my mind
Could I not breathe life into you?
And after dreaming find

Your silvered steps upon the air
Your hand against my heart
Your breath inside my ear
My beloved piece of art

Those features stroked upon your soul
So rare and hard to find
Wish you were real to make me whole
Be in my reality not just my mind

In love for the first time

When you feel your not strong enough
I can lend a hand
When your mind’s a chaotic cloud
I can understand
So let yourself go
Because I know
Just how it feels to be
In love for the first time

When you feel like calling out his name
You can call it out to me
When you want to say I love you
You can say the words to me
So let yourself go
Because I know
Just how it feels to be
In love for the first time

When I want to tell you the truth
I’ll tell it to you
When you tell me how you feel for him
I’ll say I love you
So let yourself go
But you’ll never know
The one who loves you is me
In love for the first time

Smokescreen

Walking through this life
I hear your voice
Calling my name
And through the smokescreen of my mind
I find
All the memories coming back again


Things can never be the same
They can only get better
Through this crazy life
So full of strife
We’ll know one thing
We’re better together


Never make me feel
Like what we had wasn’t real
And anytime I forget you care
Just remind me
You’re always going to be there

New Light

And it’s another day
I watch the lights fade out
I think of all I’ll say
When you call me up

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But I can’t find the words
Nothing’s coming to me

There’s no need for noise
My words sound like clichés
All I feel is this is right
There’s a new light in my days

And it’s another day
The time is drawing near
I still don’t know what to say
To make my feelings clear

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But this time I want you
To be the first to woo me

You have to dazzle me out right
And then I’ll be your dream
You have to bear your heart
And then I’ll show you what I mean

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But I can’t find the words
Nothing’s coming to me

There’s no need for noise
My words sound like clichés
All I feel is this is right
There’s a new light in my days

Unseen Storm

Moisture drips across the panes
Across these lips
Thirsting, despite the rain
The leaves quiver in the wake
In the storm that none can see
But I can feel

Smell of earth, I am but the ash
And you're sparking a flame though me
I am but yet I am not a part of this world
And you've seen through me, down to my very darkness

You're okay with the dark symphony
That plays through my blood and reaches your ears
Like a piano of black and white, dark and light
Twisted, suffocating, exhilarating melody
You're all I need.

One and The Same

How could I sitting miles away
Know how you feel before you do?

My heart opens up to you
No restraints, no walls
It's what it's meant to do

Lips to speak your name
Eyes to seek your face
Hands to help you in whatever

No, I have no sense of time
I have no sense of anything
Within you, I have everything
Without you, it's all over.

Letting You Go

What if I was sleeping and sleeping found
My feet walking towards you
Would you hug me and let the dream go on
Or would you turn me away as you've done before?

What if while speaking to you
Words left of their own accord
And twirled around your heart
Would you accept their warm embrace
Or would you simply turn your back?

I know I've let you go
But still I haven't felt it
Would I reject a little pride
To be beside you again?
Of course not, I'm as proud as you seem to be
I'll simply let go of you
Again.

Rage

I would tear up all the papers
Of all the letters we ever shared
I would burn all the reasons
Why I ever thought you cared
I cared
But how do I burn up a mind
Already spinning out of my control
Damn it! How to stop the the thoughts
How to stem what won't be caught?
Why did i ever memorize?
Memories turned out to be lies?
Why didn't I ever see
That like everyone else your age
You were nowhere near ready
To let go and find yourself so deep in me
Now I'm burning up the evidence
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs to drown out the din
Would it please you to know
I nearly ran a knife through this heart
To stop it behaving as it does
If it does not live it does not love
These tears fill up the silver cups
I'm drinking my sorrow
Saline medicine another futile way
To deaden the cells, the sensitivity
I'm still chasing the demon of your supposed love
Tie me up and cross me out
I now know you know nothing about
This stormy emotion parading as love
Ripping through my soul and burning everything
I can't act, I can't think
So seeped in the sensations of what used to be
Reverse what happened between us
I don't ever want to see you again.