Back In Love With Me

Every once in a while I lose myself
I look back
And don't know where I began
I get caught up in others Vs me
When I'm my own person
I know
I hope I am
It's like I fall out of
And back in love
With me

Lies

I’m gonna lie to myself
When I say I don’t still love you
Cry inside myself
And try my best to forgive you
Feel the void where you used to be
And just keep thinking of you
Then realize it’s all fictional
And the entire poem is a lie
Yeah I’ve been known to be confusing

Light

Shining light by my side
Letting your faith grow
Like a lamp of friendship
Am I to fall captive to its spell?
And in doing so
Finally allow myself
To need someone

Thunder

Just like the first echoes of thunder
Signal the showers of rain
So your yells and howls and screams
Beckon to your inner pain
On and on you rant
Trying to let it all out
Wishing somehow
You won’t have to cry
To finally ease it down
How loud can your voice become
Not too loud for me
Rather the thunder, than the rain…

Restless

This poet’s at a loss for words
How can she describe
The bittersweet agony
The turmoil inside
I’ll look for you
And want for you
My need for you shall grow
I’ll beg for you
I’ll bleed for you
Give till there is no more
And still it shall not happen
Whim to fates and time
Still I shall not know
Of the true love meant to be mine

End of the World

The world could end
I wouldn’t care
The sky could fall around us
I wouldn’t notice
The ground could quake beneath
I wouldn’t feel the ripple
With you here
Love is so simple
Life is you
What am I to fear?
With your arms around me

Caress

Smooth friction merges cheek against cheek
As in a brief moment of tenderness
Speck on a landscape of regret
My heart chooses to give
Knowing it could never get

Elusive freedom is in a kiss
As I transfer my soul to you
I want nothing
You’ll give nothing
Save break my heart in two

See this lonesome tear
Where it’s fallen by your lip
Oh! But if I were that tear
I would be lonesome no more
Why can’t I be that tear?

Sparks fly from your flesh to mine
You smile, I’ll be crying
Be blissful knowing I love you
Though that love was never mine to give

For sheltered in your arms
Warmed by the sunlight of your joy
Is my darling
The only time I’ve ever lived

Transcend

There are some moments
Which transcend words
Which even a poet can’t express
With all the languages of the world
What do you mean to me?
What do I see when you smile
What do I feel when you laugh
The world would dim in comparison
And every creative thought
Be rendered a cliché
Truly you leave me speechless
Powerless to the drag
As you sink into me
Slow, inescapable
Finally there
Not home
Not heaven
Just you

The Lioness

Chasing butterflies in the wind
I call to you
As we play around in green
I reach out to you
Something magical in the sky
And I’ve found it in your heart
Motion in art in motion
The circle evolves to include us
As you throw your head back
And dissolve in the moment
Catch me if you can
But know I’m all yours
Feel my heart beating
As I run out of breath
Nothing too much, too bad
As long as I’m with you

A Walk to Remember

A single pearl walked down the aisle
Tears of laughter in her smile
Today would be her day forever more
The bird had flown and continued to soar

The blossomed rose that touched the skies
The little robin had found its nest
The Prince Charming for whom she’d been waiting
Was finally hers to caress

It seemed she had known him forever
Yet never known until he had shown
The best friend she loved like no other
Was ready to become much more

Always there when she needed someone
He knew her heart and soul
A celebration of love she held so dear
He was to become her home

Music played like silver on air
Her dad held her hand so tight
And whispered in pride and pleasure
‘My daughter’s the loveliest bride’

Family and friends smiled
As she walked to where he stood
The priest started the rites
The feeling intensified into an ‘I do’

She had walked single
Now her name her life was changed
And as she looked up at him she knew
She wouldn’t have had it another way

As she kissed the boy she’d known
Husband she smiled at the sound
She glorified in her ‘walk to remember’
With the companion she’d love always
Till they were no longer around

All That Matters

I know not if you are the one
I can fool myself a thousand times
Right now I long for your kiss
Your connection
All that matters
In this fast escaping time sea
The moment & you are
All that matters
Even if we part
Fall in love again, anew
What we share is special
All that matters
You’re my friend
And you’ll still be there
When I need your help
All that matters

Touched

You’ve touched me
Through no fault of your own
Fate coincidence
A slight brush of two destinies
But you’ve stayed with me

You’ve touched me
I don’t need you to understand
To feel the same
To know the profound change
Your touch caused in me

You’ve touched me
Beautiful stranger
I know not if you’ll touch me again
The world is small
Life is long
We may just bump into each other

Hold Me

Hold me close throughout the night
Cuddle me hug me real tight
And whisper softly in my ear
I love you
Through all the ages
All our lives and more
Keep on repeating it
Till we are no more
Me and you, you in me
So we’ll love as we’ll lie
The world can’t handle
What it can’t save

Insensitivity

Sweet thing that you are
Make it impossible
To cross the bridge
Between love and affection
Addiction that has no therapy
When I hear your voice
Damn you
You insensitive pig
For leaving me with no choice
But to fall and not rising
Understand
The power of love
Through your eyes
g that you are
Make it impossible
To cross the bridge
Between love and affection
Addiction that has no therapy
When I hear your voice
Damn you
You insensitive pig
For leaving me with no choice
But to fall and not rising
Understand
The power of love
Through your eyes

Tempest

Be the mast to my sail
As I travel on raging sea
Were you to be the tempest?
Where then would my home be?

As I clutch to the rail of hope
Would the rope of friendship
Be enough to keep me from
Drowning in the forces that be?

Friend

Leave your imprint on my mind
Leave your light in my heart
I love you friend, however you are
May we meet for a moment
Be together for eternity
Or condemned to stay far apart

Your Voice

The clammy cold hands of night
Descend around my hopes
That your sweet sunshine voice
Shall brighten up the day’s gloominess

What strength must a heart possess?
To understand the unsaid
As faith remains but a dangling thread
Would a friend always understand?

Broken Free

If you don’t answer to me
Why must I answer to you?
You live in the fancy illusion
That you control all that I do

You cannot hold me any longer
I am breaking free
Even if I fall down to the earth
I’ll be falling because of me

Loneliness

You are too precious not too share
You are too giving not to care
Never lock yourself in loneliness
Or I’ll come unlock you from there

A Fairy Fell

Was a fairy to fall on my pillow?
And graciously take me away
Into a land of star shine
I’d miss you all the way

At the ball, when they took my hand
And led me to the floor
The beat would infect
And remind me of you all the more

As the net caught me
Mistaking me for a butterfly
I’d wish the hand was yours
As I walked upon it

But as I heard your voice
I’d come where you lay
All my magic, the fairy dust
I’d give it all away
If I could ensure
That you would be okay

TLC don’t mean taming

Break it just to see
How much it can crack
Without falling apart
I see the tears
I know the fears
Of that needy heart
Clinging yet arrogant
Age doesn’t mean you are smart
TLC don’t mean taming
To be exactly as you are

Why

Let it break your heart till it shrivels up inside
Till you know what you lost that night that you lied
Till you reach out to me but there’s no one at your side
Lord I hope you miss me till the day you die you die you die you die

So go ahead and cry
Let your heart just wonder why
Suffer within, suffer without
You toss and you turn and you try not to shout
Out why? Why? Why? Why…

You bleed it dry and you burn it out
You stumble and fall try not to break out
But all the light in the world can’t help you out
Cause it was your choice baby

It was the ditch that you dug that you fell into
And now you know that I know I’m not missing you
And that I’m finally out of love with you
Lord I know you’ll miss me till the day you die, you die, you die, you die

To Begin With

I thank you for helping me to be
Away from you
I thank you for helping me break free
To get over you
This was the only way I could have seen
This was the only way it could have been
My only mistake was that I trusted you
I thank you for helping me to be
Away from you
I thank you helping me break free
To get over you
I thought you were my friend
Somethings they never end
Cause they weren’t there to begin with

Love (When I was 11!)

Love is not what makes the world go round
But what makes the ride worthwhile
Love isn’t just a heavenly gift sent to bring you a smile
But love is something you cannot explain
Cause it brings you joy and in the process pain
If you have no love, it is not worth to live
Even if you are poor, you have love to give
Love can break your heart in two
Love can lift you into the air
Love has to be a part of you
Because for everybody’s heart a little bit of love is always there
Love is really the most precious thing one can ever own
Yet if you only care and share and love everyone too
You will always have love and everyone will love you

Secret Longing

Oh you who dwell in the depths
Of the labyrinths of my mind
Could I not breathe life into you?
And after dreaming find

Your silvered steps upon the air
Your hand against my heart
Your breath inside my ear
My beloved piece of art

Those features stroked upon your soul
So rare and hard to find
Wish you were real to make me whole
Be in my reality not just my mind

In love for the first time

When you feel your not strong enough
I can lend a hand
When your mind’s a chaotic cloud
I can understand
So let yourself go
Because I know
Just how it feels to be
In love for the first time

When you feel like calling out his name
You can call it out to me
When you want to say I love you
You can say the words to me
So let yourself go
Because I know
Just how it feels to be
In love for the first time

When I want to tell you the truth
I’ll tell it to you
When you tell me how you feel for him
I’ll say I love you
So let yourself go
But you’ll never know
The one who loves you is me
In love for the first time

Smokescreen

Walking through this life
I hear your voice
Calling my name
And through the smokescreen of my mind
I find
All the memories coming back again


Things can never be the same
They can only get better
Through this crazy life
So full of strife
We’ll know one thing
We’re better together


Never make me feel
Like what we had wasn’t real
And anytime I forget you care
Just remind me
You’re always going to be there

New Light

And it’s another day
I watch the lights fade out
I think of all I’ll say
When you call me up

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But I can’t find the words
Nothing’s coming to me

There’s no need for noise
My words sound like clichés
All I feel is this is right
There’s a new light in my days

And it’s another day
The time is drawing near
I still don’t know what to say
To make my feelings clear

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But this time I want you
To be the first to woo me

You have to dazzle me out right
And then I’ll be your dream
You have to bear your heart
And then I’ll show you what I mean

Been thinking of a song
To let you know how I feel
But I can’t find the words
Nothing’s coming to me

There’s no need for noise
My words sound like clichés
All I feel is this is right
There’s a new light in my days

Unseen Storm

Moisture drips across the panes
Across these lips
Thirsting, despite the rain
The leaves quiver in the wake
In the storm that none can see
But I can feel

Smell of earth, I am but the ash
And you're sparking a flame though me
I am but yet I am not a part of this world
And you've seen through me, down to my very darkness

You're okay with the dark symphony
That plays through my blood and reaches your ears
Like a piano of black and white, dark and light
Twisted, suffocating, exhilarating melody
You're all I need.

One and The Same

How could I sitting miles away
Know how you feel before you do?

My heart opens up to you
No restraints, no walls
It's what it's meant to do

Lips to speak your name
Eyes to seek your face
Hands to help you in whatever

No, I have no sense of time
I have no sense of anything
Within you, I have everything
Without you, it's all over.

Letting You Go

What if I was sleeping and sleeping found
My feet walking towards you
Would you hug me and let the dream go on
Or would you turn me away as you've done before?

What if while speaking to you
Words left of their own accord
And twirled around your heart
Would you accept their warm embrace
Or would you simply turn your back?

I know I've let you go
But still I haven't felt it
Would I reject a little pride
To be beside you again?
Of course not, I'm as proud as you seem to be
I'll simply let go of you
Again.

Rage

I would tear up all the papers
Of all the letters we ever shared
I would burn all the reasons
Why I ever thought you cared
I cared
But how do I burn up a mind
Already spinning out of my control
Damn it! How to stop the the thoughts
How to stem what won't be caught?
Why did i ever memorize?
Memories turned out to be lies?
Why didn't I ever see
That like everyone else your age
You were nowhere near ready
To let go and find yourself so deep in me
Now I'm burning up the evidence
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs to drown out the din
Would it please you to know
I nearly ran a knife through this heart
To stop it behaving as it does
If it does not live it does not love
These tears fill up the silver cups
I'm drinking my sorrow
Saline medicine another futile way
To deaden the cells, the sensitivity
I'm still chasing the demon of your supposed love
Tie me up and cross me out
I now know you know nothing about
This stormy emotion parading as love
Ripping through my soul and burning everything
I can't act, I can't think
So seeped in the sensations of what used to be
Reverse what happened between us
I don't ever want to see you again.

Push your memory away

I try to push your memory away
But every time it calls me back to say
Howdy mam! It’s been a long time
Gonna come and mess your head for a while

We've Held Hands

Scan the pages of a book
Seep into the frames of a scene
It doesn't feel apart from you
It feels like a place where you have been

And the words as you pick them up
Flow like silk over your skin
They shimmer upon your mind
And find a way to reach deep within

Oh! I feel I know you stranger
Strangers no more, our minds connect
Strange reader of a strange writer
Worlds apart, worlds intersect

And you find in each word a new key
To understand this person created by me
Is it me?
Are these my thoughts?
You discover this world which I've created
Yet you feel at home
Like this was yours

You look for me within the pages
But you do not need to know who I am
In sharing minds, we've shared visions
In sharing visions, we've held hands

My Mistress Becomes My Wife

I used to send secret letters to you
Spend hours writing each one
Yet they thought I wasn't crazy for you
That you were just a piece of fun

I'm leaving everything behind
And coming to you to stay
They may be shocked and startled
We always knew it would come to this day

I'm leaving her behind
All she gave me were an empty heart and hollow home
I'm coming to you to stay forever
I'm leaving her all alone

Song of the Banshee

The banshees came in the night time
Asking me to sing them a song
They wanted to hear the music of the living
A song that had eluded them all life long

So I strummed a few notes upon the strings
And hummed in time as I tapped my foot
They clapped their hands, they danced about
In crimson cloaks, painted with soot

When I began to sing the words aloud
They stopped and listened as I sang of love
They laughed as they listened with tears of mirth
Their heads rolled around and their eyes popped out

Stop they told me for such jest was too much
They didn't think too much of human love
They had stopped trying to find human pairs after death
Instead they found triplets, quadruplets and fives

Unknown to them, Cupid had given me his charm
My guitar the bow, my notes the arrows
Girls would dance their lovers along

The ghosts emerged from the air
As I played and the banshees swirled
When my song ended, each had a pair

They bowed in gratitude, then turned away
But one I had forgotten, she held me in her sway
I realized as she sang, her voice was so much sweeter
Enamored I knelt, she ran towards me
Before I knew it, I was seeped within her

I laughed as she smiled,
I touched her cold, clammy skin
Ah, but with love, you can never win
Treacherous Cupid gave me a flying kiss goodbye
In my quest for love, I had found my way to die

A Dream Called Paradise

Weary travelers crossed a stream
And stumbled headlong into a dream
This they did not realize
They mistook it for paradise

Colorfully dressed colorful people
Wafting smells of baking bread
Pure tunes of innocent melodies
It was a world away from theirs

An angel danced up to meet them,
Her sister joined, a butterfly
They flitted, giggled, tossed their skirts
Invited the travelers to a jive

So potent their magic, the travelers danced
Their feet not stopping, they carried on
When a search party came the morning later
They could not fathom where they had gone

I shall tell you where they lie
It's in a dream called paradise
If you're lucky enough to find it, never wake
Reality is the bigger mistake
Much better it is to fly

Love Can Come When It May

Many miles have I traveled down unforgiving roads
Many faces have I looked into then walked onwards
Solitude seems so hearty, so unlikely its demise,
Company is a fleeting trend, for fleeting delights
This heart changes skins like a snake through the seasons
This mind changes the bars, redecorates its prison
I satisfy my senses with the tiniest of pleasures
Squeeze out every drop from my molten sun day
I am whatever and everything, I need
If love wants to come, love can come when it may

When Friends Become More

Whatever you do, stay the same
Don't praise me, don't raise me
Don't be sweet to me, don't meet me
Don't even acknowledge that I am there

Whatever you do, stay the same
Don't stay true, make me feel blue
Turn away, don't even stay
Make me believe that you don't care

Whatever you do, stay the same
I may not find you, but you will come
And you will cry, and you will deny
But what has been done will stay done

Whatever you do, stay the same
And maybe when the sun shines brightly again
We'll look past the pain, laugh 'never again'
And get back to having more fun

Whatever you do, stay the same
You are my friend, let us stay the same
Don't try to be more any more
Even though I love you as I have before
Never change

The Demon Born III

Jaded, deep, above it all
Cold, I locked the fire inside
Through a million imaginary loves
I would make the ideal love survive
Through skepticism, a one-sided glass
I saw you animals in your cages
Till I saw you looking back at me
You understood the words within these pages
I stepped away and looked you over
You calmly stepped out of your box
For the first time after the freeze
I found myself begin to thaw
Many questions came, the answers not
And notions of love are so airborne
They fly away now as I wave you goodbye
And recline, within my demon born

The Demon Born II

I met them, in droves they came
As cattle with a head for grass
With evil pleasure I watched them chase
Their tails asunder, their heads apart
I stood not with butcher's knife
For though to pulp I could reduce their ploys
Though I could scheme, I preferred to watch
And get amusement from my new toys
From them who played and hoped and were blinded
Sources of inspiration anew I found and formed
With these hands and in this mind
By pen I unleashed the demon born

The Demon Born I

There was a gleam in your untamed eyes
As you wickedly spoke in jest
'Let she who loves, know love lasts not,
Quick or slow, it dies a painful death'
And I knew each letter of every word
For it was I who put them there
It was I who chose to break your heart
By parting ways with it
I threw a stone against the mirror
An attempt to shatter your ugly form
Tear-wracked, blood shot with bags of coal
Your eyes testified to the demon born

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
I wonder whose wish you are
Is it someone just like me
Locked up in her little dream?

Time For Dreaming

Forget the scheming
The thoughts that are teaming
Out to steal the last of your innocence
Seal the remainders of exuberance
Forget that you're not supposed to trust
This much, whatever you felt
This much, that you pretended you wouldn't care
No more, anytime now you're about to explode
From the heart that's been burdened with an unnatural load
No more, no more, just let it all go
It's a time for dreaming

Electric Human

The tension builds
It steals through these spaces
Little distance becoming lesser
By the passing of time though time stands still

Blood flowing through
Sparks pulse through the flesh
These same sparks merge in the air
While water takes on the thickness of blood

Brambles

The brambles in their minds
Keep them from the truth in their hearts
How can one lose what has never been found
How can one end what didn’t have a start
But as blood flows without pricking a vein
Hurt can’t be stopped by stopping the heart

My Own World

Heat and ice, sleet and hailstones
Form the torment that is my life
Tempestuous moods rage like summer snow storms
You wouldn't be able to survive

I wouldn't care to find you there
I wouldn't spare you from the hurricane
So go spare yourself while you can
I wouldn't care to see you in pain

Labyrinths with giant three headed vultures
Centaurs that shoot lasers from their eyes
Dragons that multiply when you beat them down
Volcanoes of coal, pitch black and grime

I'm not saving you, you're not saving me
So turn back and run for your life
I will not have your death on my head
You've been warned for the last time

Steal

Steal the world from me
And steal me into you
Steal everything I've ever had
By imprinting it with you

She's Run Away Home

The single whisper in her heart
Started to tear her apart
And before too long before she knew
Everything was all brand new
And she didn't want it any more

Silly little notions of a magical love
She would cling on to with intensity
Now that stupid little girl has run away home
All that's left in her place is me

The single time she tried to let it be
Went down in flames while Nero played his symphony
She tried to unlock the gates
But it was too late
And now she's suffering so far away from me

Silly little notions of a magical love
She would cling on to with intensity
Now that stupid little girl has run away home
All that's left in her place is me

Call her a dreamer, call me a fool
Call her a schemer, in a land with no rules
Call her away from me, she's like a splint in my leg
Just let her run away home, deal with me instead

Does He Know?

Can he hear my breath catch
Maybe feel my heart race
Read my mind's thoughts
Perhaps interpret
The blush on my face

Does he register the silent sigh
Realize the sheepish laugh
See I'm trying to prolong
Being with him
Trying my best to make him laugh?

Does he realize as I sing
He's the one I'm singing for
Does he realize he's just become
A dream of mine and so much more?

No Matter The Distance

Forever in a freakish future
Never know what may come next
But through the swirling smoke of vision
One can only hope what to expect
Moments of meeting up with you
Moments too fleeting
Nothing we can do
But in the name of friendship we can
Share something so true
Round and round in the spiral of life
Intersecting in planes arcane
No matter the distance the boundary
The imprint will be the same

From Fire to Ice

Leave Me Now
Go so far away
I can forget you ever existed
Forget you again every day
You had me then
All that I could give
You're a memory now
Though I've managed to forgive
A mistake I'll never repeat
An addict I'll never be
A friend I'll never try again
Cause you didn't learn to value me
As strong as I am
As wrong as I may be
I will never stand by someone again
Someone who doesn't respond to me
So go ahead and stay unknown
Try to change the wall I've become
Might as well leave me alone
This time Fire will not 'thaw' in the sun

Wee Hours of Morning

In these long sleepless nights

I find my mind drifting

To thoughts of him

I wonder what he is doing

He doesn't know the love

That is bursting in my chest

As I listen to the melodies

I hope will make this longing less

I feel alive and restless

Being driven by my heart

To experience in entirety the feeling

That's made me an insomniac bard

Express

She wished it all away
Wished it had never been
Wished they still had
What they'd had before

She would do anything
But anything would not help her
He had to play his role as she
He had to make the effort

She gave herself the light now
She would enjoy the right now
And not waste time on analyzing
Something that needed no more realizing

She would take the moments with him
And give the moments her all
Who knew what would be later?
Not she, no, not at all

Seeps

Some have been struck by lightning
Some been hit by a 20 tonne brick
Some fall, like into a hole in the floor
But I didn't go through any of it

Some claim it's cause of who he is
Some say it's the way he behaves
Some gush at his looks and charm
But I find no weight in those claims

If love can break your heart so bad
Then who would want to give in?
Love just seeps into you
Before you know it you're in love with him

He's Not That Into You

Hints surrounded her like a fog
She analyzed them as she wrote her blog
Was he such a strategist, this croakin frog?
Or were her friends just fillin her head with smog?

Sure it made a great story, just link the dots
She'd give anything to find out his innermost thoughts
But though she wished it, a mind reader she was not
And all those fairy tales in reality boiled down to naught

They told her stuff she smiled at it she really didn't care
She wished he didn't feel that way cause she knew she'd never do the same
She forgot it then and there it had been his chance he'd blown
She knew now he was not a guy to fight for her
And if there was anything she wanted most in her dude
It was that he hold on to her anyway he could

So sorry but she'd learnt her lesson
And never would she repeat her mistake
So she hoped the hints were shallow if just for his sake

Music

Rhythm flew through his veins
Forceful yet gentle magic
Electricity turning the keys
So basic so ethereal
Calling out the unthought emotions
What is this connection?
What is this language?
Whispering endearments
And I reach automatically
Who is this?
Who knows my void?
Though he doesn't know me
Who has laid claim to my deepest thoughts?
And I know its not just me
Oh! To have such power
Such...
There are no words for once
I shudder
And press replay...

Can You Love Yourself Now

My world is giddy
I'm spinning around in it
Sinning around in it
Jesus forgive me
Just stop my world being giddy
It's spinning around me
I'm high yet I'm low
Knowing I'm yet on the roller-coaster
My body shaking
My faculties wasting
Yet my mind awake
Because that's the way I roll
He said my hands were hot
Like they were frying pans
He felt my neck, my shoulders, my knee
He massaged my head to take away the panic
The tension of the day
'Just relax, don't think' He said
While I was busy counting on my mind
To save me
Save me from what?
A deeper connection?
Elemental sensation?
Drunk poetry doesn't rhyme as much
Luckily, I'm too much of a lit geek
To suffer typos
My head is spinning
I rest it on a chair
I don't want to puke
Don't want to make my mom aware
That that which I drank was vodka
Not Sprite
I wanna close my eyes
Sleep peacefully tonight
Will I be able to?
Can I burp all of it out?
And hope my boss shall e-mail me
When I'm in a stable state of mind
And she finds it easy to empathize with mine
I feel my head spinning
What will help me?
I feel my head spinning
What will help me?
Will it be the thought that I'm soon to sleep
Or will it be the thought that I was holding hands
With you who will never love me
And I don't want you to
Because I don't want to take things too far
I just want to enjoy this moment
You and I
As I burp my way to sobriety

Merry Go Round

Grey smoke parts in curtains of dew
Across the grainy sand touched by the blue emeralds of drops
Tiny sinking in deep vanishing in a moment
Oh beautiful sky you fill me up with joy
I empty the cup of my sorrow into you upwards
Merry me, round and round, in the dust kicked up by my heels
Freedom freed in this heart of mine beating a tattoo faster than the raining spell Pitter patter of little feet of little drops calling to me
Dripping down the smooth cool surface of angry horses with flashing eyes flashing gold into the night like the beacons of something evil

A storm rents the sky
Thunder echoes softly, deadly
Promising death to who stands in its path
I search for cover, looking here there for some dry sanctuary
I find none except the wild horses rocking away in demented melody
Rushing, risking life I run to one who looks at me
Daring me to climb it as the ferris spirals out of control
Up, up I look amazed as it turns up out of the ground
I feel dazed I know not anymore for all is blackness to me

I open these eyes so tightly shut and breathe
One piece, all there and music comes to my ears
A painful melody of teary violins in the wind
The notes almost tangible to he who can perceive
Overcome with the emotions inspired within this capricious heart I look to the only light in the place
An oil lamp blushes with light on to the face of intensity
Angular features on an angular face lips pursed in concentration
Painting with a frenzy I understand
He looks up but doesn't see me
Too lost in what surrounds him to know anything except the blood of his heart bleeding on to his canvas out of the pores of his brush
I understand

Writer's Ecstasy

The words unravel from my pen
Shadows dancing along the walls of this church
Candles flickering
Arranged in a pattern
That doesn't quite make sense
I'm awake yet not
Sleeping, almost dead to the world
Just awake to the music that plays
Curious symphony of ghostly hands
So ancient, so wise, yet ever changing
Strong hands
Beautiful to look at

The church is domed
It has ladies posing within gilt frames
They extend their hands to the viewer
Daring him to visit their space
Sly, cunning smiles
Glorious youth
Beguiling splendor
They look at me and I know them
They beckon to my soul
My reflection dances within their eyes

The smoke of the ghost rises
It evanesces across the room
Spreading, kissing each portrait in turn
It reminds me of a guy I used to know
Briefly one then another
All turning, merging, melding
It forms the nature of a Prince
Surrounds me, twirling around me
Through him, with him, in him
Spirit makes reality shine
No longer material, no longer substance
I leave my earthly bonds as I merge with the divine

Scarred

At times like these
My heart bleeds
An open wound
A scar slashing across my face

In times like these
Sorrow overflows
From dry eyes
A desert too parched to cry anymore

We'll live in parallel
We won't intersect
You will never see
As I long alone and lonely, silently

Station Square Part III

He had changed, she wondered
As he spoke of conditions and terms
How had he got so far from the misery?
How had he picked himself up?
How had he learned?

He cleared his throat in annoyance
Asking her to concentrate
At last when the meeting ended
He commented on her state

She really couldn't stand it then
Annoyed, upset she teased
'Have you forgotten the station square?
Can't you recall the friends that used to be?'

'They suffered rudenesses together
Calling them names, people turned
How they held on to each other then
As in the sweltering sun they burned.'

As she continued, he held up a hand
'As if they hadn't died in your eyes,
Fame went to your head my dear,
Now, I've let it go to mine.'

Voicing a protest she began
But he simply picked up his phone
'I've got another meeting in five,
You could do as you did and leave me alone.'

Beyond any control, the storm in her mind
She took the phone and slammed it down
'I made the mistake years ago Karan,
Do not let's make this mistake right now.'

She held on to his hand and made him look
She touched his cheek and he silently shook
Putting his hands in her hair he whispered
'I can't forget and I can't forgive you.'

'You shattered me, when you left...'
Tears pricked her eyes at the sight of his pain
'I'm so sorry' she began
He shook his head and cursed
'Damn it, you still don't understand
I loved you.'

Cradling him within her arms
She rested his head upon her chest
'I don't care what you do,
I'm not leaving you again.'

There they stood till there was no need for words
As the reunited two relearned
It doesn't matter how much time has passed
Once you've loved, you'll always love

Station Square Part II

How confused were the beggars
When she walked among their midst
Struggling to spot a familiar face
Struggling to catch a glimpse of him

No one remembered the little boy
Heartbroken she wandered back to her four walls
The loneliness came shattering down upon her
There was only emptiness in it all

Wiping her tears she prepared for the meeting
Endorsement of a cosmetics brand
When she entered the head office
She saw him sitting a table away

She longed to shout, she longed to question
But it seemed he recognized her not
Cold voice, cold face, cold eyes, all formal
It seemed she wasn't the only one who had forgot

Station Square Part I

Twas just the two of them
In a lowly begging hovel
Covered in sweat, dirt and grime
Everyday a survival struggle

Tricks from pickpockets
Emotions from the begging rich
The station square was learning ground
As much as it was to kismet a pitch

Till one day a producer came
Who spotted the diamond beneath the coal
Made an offer none could have refused
To the girl if she would take the role

Life changed for the tot then
What color her world did get
As kismet gave her fame and success
Her childhood friend she did forget

Stopping at the station now
She wonders what happened to him
Selfish to the core, now guilty
Where could her search for him begin?

The Bella and The Rogue

She lifted her fan to her face
And blushed her winning smile
The gentlemen rushed to her side
They formed a crowd in the aisle

Her beauty that of the fairest pearl
Her voice like merry nightingale
As she scanned the room she found
A dark handsome unmoved male

She slanted her gaze to assess
Such an anomaly and to her whim
She walked of her own accord
And asked the next dance of him

As they danced she asked his name
And it was then she discovered
This irresistible rogue
Was the friend to whom she'd promised forever

'I've never forgotten you'
She smiled as he broke down and said
'I've tried time and again
But I could never get you out of my head'

And so the song came to a close
And we shall leave these two to find
That when a bella meets a rogue
Sometimes she finds a love divine

Blazon's Court

In Blazon's court there grew a girl
Tall and proud and fair
As by a fence a young boy drew
Enchanted by her hair
As she danced and drew him out
From his solitary cove
In the hands of fate a friendship grew
That blossomed into love
Twas the thorns that men hath made
That drew the two apart
Her string tied to another kite
As dictated by the stars
Through life and worlds they roamed about
Led by time and destiny
Till once more they met wisened
Experience had set them free
White the hair on their heads
But the easel gleamed a page anew
Souls took refuge at last
In the music of their hearts

Skull, Crossbones And a Bottle O' Rum- Tales From the World of A Pirate

Twas a dark stormy night
On the All Hallow's eve
That Viktor Groth steered his ship
Through the black tides of sea

From whence the storm
Had laid its seige
None had a hint or clue
Tis they new for sure
They'd be dead
Till the new morn was due

Afraid to lose his ship
Unwilling to lose the loot
Viktor called on the devil
'I shall make a tryst with you'

And so he lived to tell the tale
He lived to tell many more
The Devil's messenger on this earth
Fear of anyone who dared to row

Even the sirens turned their tails
He was cold to the warmth of love
What he preyed on- human hearts
Though anything human he'd long forgot

He lived with the ghosts
They formed his crew
And anyone foolish soon realized
Anyone who messes
With Viktor's crew
Is the one who surely dies

And then the day dawned anew
When Viktor saw Gail Remington
And at once remebered all
Their love when they were young

He cried out as her ship came near
For here was the ultimate test
He had to torture and to kill
The one he'd always loved best

As she was tied and brought onboard
His heart lurched at the memory
Sweet caresses, sweeter kisses
One fateful night at sea

So he proceeded with the knife
To scar what he had always cared about
But instead he cut his chest
And pulled his own beating heart out

'Take this and be happy'
He shouted for the world to hear
As he fell to his knees, fell into the sea
And disappeared

For lo my friend and tis the truth
A man can be the devil himself
But in the end wat one would do for love
Can wake the devil himself from hell

S, C & aBoR- Captain Diana Jamieson

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
I got me dagger and me gun
Woe to the man who dares to come
Near this woman
I'll shoot him in the bum!

Twas a man with an ego so large
There was no place for the ship in the barge
The new age ones call him an mcp
Well he tried to get the better of me
And before he knew it he went through it
And found his ass in the deep blue sea

A love lorn fool came up and said
'If I don't have thy love, you'll find me dead'
I asked him then
'Do you want to do it yourself
Or shall i shoot you instead?'
For I have no patience
For the light in the head

And on the rival ship stood so proud a man
The captain such a lofty man
He laughed when he saw me a female captain
And laughed at my crew
At every woman- following man
I could have easily blown the ship
And that I did do immediately after
I shot his pants buttons with my gun
And they fell down to rollicking laughter

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum
I dare ye laddies, dare one come
For we ladies can't be outdone
Definitely not when we've got
Our bottle of rum ;-)

Ravage to Fire- Leave the past

He whispered in your ear he loves you
He whispered in your ear he cares
He whispered in your ear he loves you
And you turned around and he wasn’t there

So you held the flame and burnt the paper
You kissed the memory goodbye
But it still feels like he wants to haunt you
That he wants to stay right by your side

So kiss me now and leave me breathless
Leave the past far behind
And run into these open arms- they’re waiting
As he slips back into your mind

So you held the flame and burnt the paper
You kissed the memory goodbye
But it still feels like he wants to haunt you
That he wants to stay right by your side

It’s me who loves you,
It’s me who cries
It’s me who wonders
If you’ll ever realize…

So kiss me now and leave me breathless
Leave the past far behind
And run into these open arms- they’re waiting
As he slips back into your mind

Universe

He looked at her and she felt beautiful
He smiled at her and she got high
He got down on one knee and her mind spun
As he asked her 'will you dance with me?'

He held her hand and she felt infinite
He brought her close and he brought her home
Silver angels of notes guided them
He looked into her eyes and he gave her the universe to view

For The Love of Lucifer

'Who are you?' She trembled
As she felt his presence draw near
'I am the one who loves you
There is no need for fear.'

'I feel like I've met you before
Tell me how can that be?'
'We were meant to be together angel
From genesis to eternity.'

'Don't you remember my Father's home
My brothers and the games we played
Don't you remember the fight we had
How things could never be the same?'

'I should be angry that you left
I've taken the anger out on this world
But now I've seen you I can do naught but love you
You are the one who can save me girl'

She was transported back in time
And then she understood
The devil, he had no evil
Only a heart that broke and shook

She felt the connection surge
And all her doubts fell away
She nodded as he took her hand
'I'm ready, you may show me the way'

And the heavens opened up
To swallow them in white fleece
As her heart shook with the love she felt
The world lit up with peace

'You have my love' she said
He answered 'Darling, you've saved my life.'
As heaven erupted to thunderous applause
For the Devil had brought Home his wife.

My Heart Is Already Given (Part II)

The Prince woke up in the dreams
Of the girl he knew he loved
He was trapped within her mind
Only to dream but not to love

He lingered there till the day
When like all she passed away
Alone, helpless, broken hearted
He walked a man with no fate

Picking up the soft clouds, he thought
Of his palace all huge and grand
Lo behold! It appeared before him
The sapphire seas and emerald lands

Walking further, he discovered a pool
Whose waters were clear and cool
He reached for a sip
And found he couldn't see himself

Instead he saw fantastic pictures
As if snatched out of a dream
As he took a palmful of water
It turned into a sunlight beam

Fascinated, he sat right there
Watching dreams all the time
Till one day he saw a dream
That reminded him of the girl he'd left behind

'Who are you?' he asked in wonder
As he ran his hand through its sparkling stream
The will so great, he pulled himself in
And he landed into my dream

Many years have passed since I first met him
Through dreams he's taught me what love can be
He took my heart before I knew it could be taken
He's given the gift of his love to me

You think this is merely a poem, a fantasy
But He is my life, this is my confession
I cannot love you even though you love me
I fear my heart is already given

Burning Building Part I

The smell overpowered Jannat- like a gas, fishy and suffocating, the smoke entered her lungs and grabbed hold of them forcing all the air out. The curtains were already alight in angry orange tongues. Papers were burning, the small windows she’d told her boss would not be good in a fire emergency were proving her point. They were already clogged with smoke. She tried to make it for the door but the flame reached her skirt and its pleat caught fire. There she was burning and watching the building go up in flame- ‘I must get out’ and as she finally got her hand on the knob, she felt blackness swiftly coming…

Freakin' Fairytale (Song)

I'm as free as one can ever be

I'm just free, I'm not for sale

I don't care 'bout the diamonds you're flashing me

I just want a freakin' fairytale

I want damn Prince Charming

To climb out of a book

To walk to my doorstep

Just like he knows that he should

He'll carry no flowers

He'll carry no sword

He'll just sweep me away

Within his kingdom of words

I'm as free as one can ever be

I'm just free, I'm not for sale

I don't care 'bout the diamonds you're flashing me

I just want a freakin' fairytale

There we'll meet the merry guards of phrase

Quote will keep wishing we all did as she says

Loopy clauses shall show us the way

Adverb will sit with his paunch on display

Adjective will run after pretty little noun

Object and subject will both clown around

In pretty frocks, letters will dance

And so i shall have the grandest romance

I'm as free as one can ever be

I'm just free, I'm not for sale

I don't care 'bout the diamonds you're flashing me

I just want a freakin' fairytale

My Heart Is Already Given (Part I)

Once upon a time a princess
Stepped upon a poisonous snake
It hissed and darted tongue
As a guard pushed her out of the way

He struck it through with sword
Till snake was merely sheath
A bone chilling cry rent the air
The ground split open from beneath

Hideous voice emanated from smoke
'My sweet would not have hurt a fly,
He was my love in serpentine form,
As I have cried, so you shall cry.'

This cruel hex the girl recalled
As her lips touched those of her sweet
They had exchanged wedding vows
Now, he was merely ashes at her feet

Broken down, she didn't notice
As the crowd made its way toward her
The rebels cried for their beloved Prince
As the King rushed to save his daughter

Flawed

Exposed to my eyes
Every inch of your insecurity
You turn away awaiting
Embarrassed
How could you feel so?
When you're with me

I care not for perfection
Its you I see
You as you are
Whom I choose to have

My love is not blind
It is unconditional
As long as you are mine
My friend, my love
What more need I ask for?

Smooth Liar Sweet Talker

She walked up to him. ‘Where have you been?’
‘Always here by your side’
He softly said and smoothly lied
And once more she let him inside
If it must be then it will
I’ll give my heart to you
As I get ready for the tears to spill
‘Lie just one more time
I’m so ready to be fooled’
It was enough if it was all he could give
She’d find her bliss in his cruel
She walked up to him. ‘Where have you been?’
‘Always here by your side’
He softly said and smoothly lied

Through Magic Part III

A single tear from her left eye
Fell upon the weakened earth
Was she to bare her secret
Or risk breaking her heart

She looked at him and breathed deep
'I am the angel who healed your knee'
His arms came around her then
'I was waiting for you to tell me'

Confused, she asked him to explain
'I always knew' He began
'I saw you when I joined my hands,
It was I who told my dad.'

'Now if you love or if you loathe,
Know this once, forget it never,
Ever since that day of joy,
I've been the boy who'll love you forever.'

Another tear spilled from the right
And then they flew down like a stream
As she finally went into his arms
The little fairy fulfilled her dream.

Through Magic Part II

So they grew together these two
In and out of ups and downs
As years passed they grew closer still
Buddies always ready to be clowns

But then one summer day
When she could contain herself no more
She spoke to him the words of love
The ones she had stopped many times before

But he told her of the day
An angel had touched a part of him
And in healing his tortured self
Had stolen away the heart of him

Through Magic (Part I)

A little orphan fairy
Crept away from certain doom
No more to be constrained
To bathe in the light of the full moon

As she walked on through the night
She heard a child wailing woe
He couldn't walk, he couldn't run
So he would have nowhere to go

Full of love for the dreams in him
And wanting to be needed too
She used her magic to heal his pain
Knowing he'd never have a clue

But in giving what she got
Was the smile when morning came
And he sent a prayer up to God
For the angel who had healed his pain

Lying so underneath a tree
She was found by a gentleman
Who enchanted by the little thing
Took her in as sister to his son

Imagine her surprise when she learnt
The healer was saved by the healed
Keeping her delight to herself
She didn't let her feelings be revealed

Today Once Again

Today once again she waited for the train,
Today once again she hoped for gentle rain,
Today once again she longed to see a face,
Today once again she resignedly took her place,
Today once again she heard the shouts and screams,
Today once again she knew not the completion of dreams,
Today once again she smiled and let duties rule
Tomorrow once again she'd hope dreams would come true...